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maa

ishwar ko toh dekha nahi kahin
par uska roop toh dekh liya maine yahin.

kehte hain har koi ek sa nahi hota
par ek tu hin toh hai jiske aanchal mein sir rakh ke hamesha tera balak hai rota.

paane ko hai kuch nahi ,tune hamesha hai bas humein diya
sampurn jeevan apna hamare parvarish mein nyochawar kiya.

armaan mere bhi hai maa ki khwahishein puri karun teri
bas itni iltezaah hai khuda se ki woh madad karein unhein puri karne mein meri.

kabhi keh na paaya tujhse maa par aaj keh raha hun yeh
apna aanchal sadev rakhna mujhpe , dete rehna mamatva se paripurn sneh ...

Dead Man walking ..

Is this what they term as life
a treacherous path , full of strife .

Pushed to the shove , i know not what to do
Guess my nemesis is what i should pursue .

Time and again you have snatched away my dream
her countenance that always made my eyes gleam .

There is a limit to a person's suffering is what they say
if its true then why do you twist me beyond limits as if i am just a toy made of clay ?

distraught thoughts , disturbing memories ; what else is to follow ?
a dead man walking , i am already rendered completely hollow ...

Obituary ...

Night has fallen , darkness abounds

Somewhere in the wilderness , a lost soul hounds .

Was it his grief that was profound

Or his adversaries that had brought him face down on the ground .

I know not but am bound to trudge along and see

Cause the dreadful whining wont let me breathe free .

As I draw close , shiver runs down my spine

I reproach myself for wandering off , yet keep on saying "everything is fine" .

At some distance i chance upon a mound

A few steps more and an epitaph is what i found .

I bend down for the thick layers of dust needs to be blown away

The wind seems to be assisting me , as the trees begin to sway .

Light from the crescent moon falls on the engravings

I slowly start to read , giving way to my inner cravings .

"As i lay herein , I am glad i can no longer be seen

They will never come to know of the remorse that lies within

Thou aren't aware of the bouts of miseries that had grown

Cause a cheerful countenance is what i had always shown

My dreams kept getting out of sight

Yet i garnered hope to plunge in for a last fight

I succumbed coz against destiny i had no might

In the end , had to accept my woeful plight ."

Dumbstruck i frantically start to search for the day

When the poor man had to finally go away .

I find none

The day that signified that Satan had finally won !

Amidst the turmoil of emotions , a thought suddenly dawned

There lay no man and so no mention of the day was to be found .

It was my own soul that was making the call

The one that had bore all and taken the fall .

All that remained of me is this mortal body

A futile mind that makes me do menial work that's quite shoddy .

I pluck a black rose and lay it on the solitary grave

For my soul that never was , as they termed it 'rave' ...

Cursed

Every time i thought it was over

It came back to show me - my joys are temporary , but the sorrows are forever .

They say every cloud has a silver lining

My skies are so dark , even the dungeons appear to be shining !

Fighting against all odds is a habit i've inculcated

Somehow i know i'm one of the most ill fated .

Come on God , give me some more pain

If i am the chosen one , why shall any punishment remain ??

... LOST ...

How difficult nowadays life seems

The rigmarole i once hated , now feels like a dream .

In this heart of mine once there was light

As i had hopes pinned on my last fight .

Time and again I bared my all to endure the whip

Yet good times always somehow managed to give me a slip .

Now as darkness engulfs the horizon , the outcome is almost clear

The battle is almost lost , a painful fact that i have to bear .

I might feel satisfied cause with all my strength i fought

But the horrifying outcome will always unsettle me as i lost my precious , the one i had so dearly sought ...

May be i missed the quintessential kick that was needed for a start

Or maybe lady luck never came by to play her much needed part .

Whatever be the reason , the outcome makes me feel wrought

Coupled with the painful reminders that it has with itself brought .

"Life is all about going on" thou may say

But is it truly a 'LYF' if i could never have it my own way ???

AMEN ..

I m so lonesome , i culd jst die

putting an end to al my hue nd cry ..

Everything around me seems to be a bane

guess tats wats driving me insane ..

Lyf has now become a burden , relieve me of this pain

let my rotten blood ooze out nd flow into the drain ...

MARRIAGE ADVERTISEMENT ... by my buddy ..

it's that season of the year again

when all 'so called' eligible guys and girls,feel the same old pain

all the worried parents turn on the heat

to achieve what they feel,is the most important feat,'MARRIAGE'

even this newspaper is carrying that ad,

not quite knowing how much they make innocent young people sad

'wanted: bride for a handsome guy',

although,even the guy knows in his heart,he isn't quite that,how much ever he may try

the bride should be tall

this is the minimun requirement of the parent-turned-hungry animal,on the prowl

the girl should be fair,

certainly,she should be having long,black.glistening hair

the unwritten condition though is,her behaviour would be closely assessed,as though through a lens

obviously,to bear with the whims & fancies of her in laws,she should have patience,& in abundance

now comes the more important search for the groom

for he's the one who is as meticulously searched for,as though searching for a dust grain,sweeped by a broom

he should be tall,handsome & dark,

doesn't really matter if the contrast between him & the prospective bride is quite stark

in lakhs he should be earning

never mind if post marriage,for some other prettier faces,he develops a yearning

he should have no drug or similar dependence

who cares if his behaviour makes the bride so tense,as if sitting on a fence

now comes the most important aspect

which the familes never fail to inspect

the prospective bride & groom should be of the same caste

which is really ironical,coz who knows the surnames of the good samaritans;or those who are behind deadly bomb blasts

it's quite unfortunate,

but allow me to state,

i dearly hope our generation can change this,mate....

even if,it's a just a tad late

Ya maula ...

Khuda ki rahmat hui toh dekhega zamana

tera mera rishta hai kitna purana !

janmo janam se chalta aaya hai

apna yeh yaarana .

chor ke tu iss manjar pe ab Ae Nazani

kabhi ruksat na ho jaana .....

meri rooh ki tarap ko woh kabhi samajh na payi ..

sare bajar nilaam ho gayi mohabbat humari

par unki ankhon me ashru ki ek boond tak najar na ayi ...

tujhse duur jaunga kahan

tere paas aaunga yahaan .

maut toh bas ek bahana hai

teri rooh ke saath , zindagi jo nibhana hai ....

What is it ??

What is it that you couldn't stay in my heart ?

Now that you are leaving , I just want to tear it apart .

What is it that you bring to the fore ?

I am restless , shaken right up to the core .

What is it that your memories conjure ?

They won't let me sleep , making me an insomniac for sure .

What is it that'll bring you back to me ?

Even if it's my demise then grant it, that's my plea ...

Ray of hope ...

From the skies of life,
Tearing the clouds of sadness
There comes a ray of hope
Enlightens our world
And gives us strength to cope
It fills in light
It fills in strength
And teaches us never to bend
It makes us smile
It brings us joy
Makes us as happy as a child with toy
A ray of hope is a beam of light
Which removes from our lives the darkest night

an ode to TITANIC ...

Life is but a hollow shaft
To render it fruitful one must know the craft
They say love ain't anything but a blank draft
But the truth is it gets colourful if you are blessed with the blissful art .

Who has the time , thou may say
But sit back and realise you may
Ur heart is still empty coz u r caught up in the daily grind
To redeem urself Love it is my dear frnd tat u need to find .

As for me , memories are all i have
Tats my fuel coz till the end i need to drive
May be tats where i'll find Her again .. She who's my life
My heart will surely again strive
to gain the love of which i hav alwayz been deprived . . .


P.S - listening to the hyms of Titanic is wat inspired me to pen down these words ... so there goes the "ode" !!

scribble ...

A hymn to the SEA
I wanna get lost in thee . .
so plz let me in
for the eternal peace that lies therein .

I want to blame my fate again

But that wont ease off my pain ..

I m gng down , i can easily sense that

Though i was alwayz praised as a promising young lad ..

My expectations have already proved to be a tad too much

But i can't refrain from it nd will smehow keep on with the search ...

Fate .. O my congenital Fate !

Why is it that u treat me as ur surrogate ??

All that i have is put at stake

Only for you to depict it as an awful mistake . . .

the sound ain't tat of a sweet temple bell ..

. its my death knell resounding in hell

coz tats where i m destined to dwell ...

as my blood vessels now begin to swell

with the rotten blood billowing out an acrid smell . .

Woh bhi kya din the . .

Jab dil ki har ek aarzu bayaan kiya karte the
Bade se bade gham ko saath milkar seh liya karte the
Jarurat ho sahare ki toh aap sabke kaandhe the mil jaate
Har ek mulakat ko hum kilkariyon se the sajate
Kisi tarah saath bana rahe , yehi toh the hum chahte
Par apni hin rah pe sabhi chale jaate
Bhul ke un sunehre yaadon ko jo aaj bhi hain mere mann ko lalchate ...

dad's poem ...

Jindagi Kya Hai ...

Jindagi ek pyara khel hai ... isse khel kar dekho
Jindagi ek Suhana Safar hai ... ispar chal kar dekho
Jindagi ek Bahati Nadia hai ... Taer kar dekho
Jindagi ek Maha Parva hai ... mana kar dekho
Jindagi ek Sapna hai ... iski aaghosh mein kho kar dekho
Jindagi ek nayi naveli dulhan hai ... apna kar dekho
Jindagi ek tufan hai ... saamna karke dekho
Jindagi barsat ki pehli bouchar hai ... bhing kar dekho
Jindagi me sab aani jani hai ... aisa sonch kar dekho
Jindagi punam ki raat hai ... bahar nikal kar dekho
Jindagi jare ki sunahari dhup hai ... luft utha kar dekho
Jindagi jeene ka nam hai ... bharpur Jee kar dekho
Jindagi Ishwar ka diya vardan hai ... khush rah kar dekho ...

poems 4 my near nd dear ones

they say gud frnds r few
the only ones who r true 2 you
no matter how harshly this world shows its intentions 2 sue
they'll never believe in wat others construe against you
frndz stay with you through thick nd thin
they r ur "steroids" wen you r pain stricken
even the most treacherous paths traversed with them
makes 4 a memorable getaway tat satiates the inner stem
nd there comes a time wen you fall short of procuring even a single dime
wen al tat you do is considered analogous 2 a petty crime
left all alone in wilderness you have no hopes of surviving
but ur frndz come 2 ur rescue , bringng along aides 2 keep u striving
tats al i can say 2 alwayz be under your sway ...




As the rain splatters against the windows .. and
the leaves rustle in the wind ...
A sweet little girl wakes up frm her dreams ..
only to realize that its time for some zing ...
Searching for the keys is the first thing she does ..
coz the rain is coming down hard nd absolutely wet is the turf !!
She takes her bike out on the highways ..
to feel the gushing air make its way through ...
The pulchritude of the surroundings provides a gr8 figurative metaphor ..
for she seems like a felican , on the look out for a new route !!
After a while as the sun comes up to shine ..
She comes home untidy ,unclean .. yet alwayz on time !!
Though she gets a scolding for a minute or two
The nxt day its gonna be the same ... we al know its true !!!




A long time back , i was a child
The sweet memories that i can still cherish
As i remember those halcyon days of mine
My sweet didi is whom i can alwayz find
She cajoled me , cuddled me , kept me happy
No matter wat happened , she would never let me cry !
Her stories for me , were a gr8 reprise
I was ur cutie pie nd i can never forget tat
The days gone by will never be back again
But i can still relive those fond memories
Coz my sweet didi is with me nd will forever be !!!

aakhri lamhein . . .

BIT mein yeh aakhri lamhein humein bara satate hain
Na jaane kyun aankhein ashkon se bhar jaate hain
Doston ka yeh pyaar aur dulaar koi kaise bhula payega
Koi kaise in sunehre palon ko sanjo kar wapas layega
Rah jayenge sirf yeh rishte jo jiye the dil se
Zindagi mein yehi toh milti hai bari mushkil se
Kabhi alvida na kehna ae dost , bas itni si hai gujarish
Is rah pe chalte chalte hum phir milenge , puri karne apki har adhuri khwahish ...


We'll soon be out of sight as we depart
But I'll never let the distance make us drift apart
The times spent 2gether will 4ever be missed
Most of which were sheer moments of bliss
No matter what the separation makes u construe
My love 4 u all will always be true . . .

driving me on >>>

Dedicated 2 my Love , My passion >>> MUZIC - - -

the cynosure of my eyes
u have been d secret behind al my highs
You gave me innumerable moments to cherish
the inner satisfaction , tat i had alwayz craved for
for al this nd reasons galore
here is an assurance , tats genuinely true

No matter where i go , whatever i do
its my passion , tat will alwayz pull me back 2 You :)

love personified ...

i culd come up with this ... if u can think of smething more then do send in ur comments ..


Love is not meant to be analysed ..
its meant to inspire without reason ..
to be understood without explanation ...
to be felt without touch ..
to be expressed without words ..

the journey ..

Life is a mystic journey , with illusions aplenty
To live a simple one is what we crave
But like a twitched fork , it always behaves .
A linear sequence of scares awaits
To take them head on is what everyone hates .
But the bountiful of pleasures that lies ahead
Lures one and all to nullify the threats , whilst moving ahead .
At times we find ourselves in despair
With no one to speak to, no one to share .
In times like these , life seems to be a curse
Perhaps for the misdeeds of our previous birth .
To get respite from the turmoil that keeps unfolding
We either drone in pain , or keep on playing the blame game
Despite all this , we keep striving and making efforts
Our souls giving the backup , a gleam of hope doing the patch up !!
This is how life turns out to be
Springing surprises mostly during times of crisis .
To stay alive is all we need to do
Cause the basic fact remains the same , it ain’t anything new
" It’s the love for your life , that will always see you through "

awesome simile ... jst for fun :)

girlz r like bees
they'll hover around ur head
u'll feel gud
slowly they'll settle there
nd make a hive !!
u'll feel like the king of the world
jst put ur hands up
nd sweet honey @ ur disposal !!
no 1 will be happier than u !!
but then
sme day sme how
u'll realise tat
the hive has broken
nd the bees will
run after u
make ur life a hell
sting u again nd again
nd leave u groaning with pain !!